矛盾的心情

每當安步因為生病而在家中休息，我的心情總是漸漸複雜起來，看著他康復心情跟著變好，但在家裡照顧他的日子也意味著我的一天多半要等他睡著了才能開始。一個禮拜下來其實會因為自己無法好好工作而神經緊繃。某晚，我列出了某晚安步睡著後我所做的工作內容，那些揪著我心裏的重責大任:

(1) I wrote back to a colleague about the location of his guest lecture.
(2) I browsed the website of the 2009 new Designer's Exhibition.
(3) I spell-checked Julianne Moore's name from IMDB because I was starting to feel like her character in The Hours.
(4) I read news about SMAP's Kusanagi Tsuyoshi's public exposure.
(5) I drank some wine.
(6) I decided on a new notebook to use.
(7) I put away four bags that have just been mended.
(8) I filled out a survey on how to improve teaching.
(9) I looked up the term "PC Bang"
(10) I wrote a review for a manuscript.

寫完之後我覺得很好笑，這些重責大任是我暫時不用兼母職時有體力有智力應付的，只是，這些只是前菜而已，主菜不能直接上，等吃完前菜後自己也陣亡了。good night.